Could there be a song like “Sana Dalawa Ang Puso Ko” and “Isang Linggong Pag-ibig”, but for those naman na na-fall in love agad?
Is it possible to fall in love on someone or something for just isang araw?
Hmmm…
Wala lang... It just came to my thought na baka nga may song for those in such scenario.
I did fell in love with this nice guy from our client’s office. He's not gwapo but he seemed masipag and responsible. You know naman with my age now, I need someone that is really presentable to my Mommy. Well, up to now, hindi pa rin ako sigurado kung love nga ba ‘yun o I need to change my glasses na. Whatever that is, wala rin naman akong napala. Kahit first base man lang I didn't make it. Whatever that means. He was just there in a not so right time. Siguro I made convince myself na siya na nga. Thinking that we are of the same situation, (almost) the same principles, almost the same birthday and pareho kaming mahilig sa mga kids! But here I am still getting hurt or affected pa rin kapag I get to hear that he ask this girl out, or harap-harapan siyang nakikipag-flirt-tan sa ibang babae samantalang I'm just sitting there in his back seat. Oh, and for the record that he's doing that, alam n'ya that I kinda like him.
I perhaps created a fictional world for me to enjoy. I convinced myself that I am masaya around this guy being my knight in shining armor and me as the princess in distress, na nakakulong in the tower. At ngayon that the tower starts to make guho na or better yet, I discovered na it has no lock after all. I pretty much can just open the door and go down the stairs! Well, it is me who should destroy what I built, right?
It’s no fairy tale, nor a happy ending... as always.
Maglumandi s’ya kung kanino. I lived a life that is quite peaceful before i got to know him, why not ngayon di ba?
Bitter Ocampo, me?! Sabi sa akin ng friends ko. Bitter na kung bitter. Napahiya ako e, disappointed. Ang plastic ko naman if I make smiles pa ako di ba? May mga moments pa rin na tanga at gaga pa rin ako sa kanya. Lalo na I make sungit moments din. Let me recover naman. As much as I wanted na sana it would be just one time vomiting na lang o parang I make fart na lang tapos wala na yung tummy ache ko, but it's not just like that e! Somehow may leftover pa ring maiiwan di ba? May konting natitira pa rin sa body system ko. Pero in due time, malilinis na rin. Sana there are medicines like Diatabs o Kremil-S na gamot para sa isang dignified recovery. (Hmmm... endorsement!?)
Kahit papano, I feel that I am recovering naman. Bumabawi na. Sabi nga it's fast naman daw ako mag-bounce back. Huh? Does that mean I am getting fat?!? Hahaha! Fine! Mataba na kung mataba, papayat din ako noh. Dr. Vicky Belo? Hellow? Anyway, balik sa first question: Is is possible to fall in love in the most shortest time? Kababawan di ba? Pero siguro, I just admire him lang talaga. Oo nga, I used this poor kid perhaps to get over that man in the other office. I used him in the sense that I didn’t hurt anyone naman… bad ‘yun! ‘Yoko makarma noh. Door to door na daw today and next day delivery na kaya ang karma! Scary!
Nakakatuwa lang. He helps me in a way na maka-recover or ma-divert ang mind ko. But it's not really possible nga! Why?
1.) Di ko naman talaga siya type. Way out of the Orlando Bloom, Jake Gyllenhaal at Collin Farrel ideology ko. Don't make kontra na, pangarap nga eh. It's free. Di ko kayo pinakikialaman ha?!
2.) I am old. Really OLD. And just the other day, I helped him out pa yata to realize na ang bata pa pala n’ya. Wow. Like I'm his mother? I never dream of being a cradle snatcher, nor be in a May-December affair. Uso na nga daw ‘yun, but then again, ayaw ko nang sumasabay sa mga uso. EVER.
3.) May GF siya. It’s a big deal for me. Although minsan may evilness making whisper to me with kasamaan na once in my life, I’d be an official mistress or destroy a relationship. Kaya ko ba like 'yung song na "Lips of an angel"? Pero hindi ko talaga kaya. As in. Lalo kapag he makes diin pa na “mahal na mahal” n’ya 'yung girl, wish ko ako 'yung girl!
In fairness, bibigyan ko na lang ng award ‘yung batang ‘yun. I hope true nga lahat nung pinapakita n’ya. His girlfriend would have been very lucky. What more kung magiging wife na n’ya.
Timing was good siguro, in helping me get over the other one. But the scenario is quite bad, and the person? Lalo pa. Kataon lang, everyday I get to see him, seatmate ko pa, almost everyday we go home sabay. Pero hindi rin. Nah. Hindi ko kaya. Ako ang writer ng buhay ko. This is not a new chapter. Corny.
Nagkataon lang nga siguro.
If I may say this, it’s the wrong man, at a wrong place and definitely a wrong time.
And there’s no such thing as falling for a day or even fell for a day. Nagkataon lang... uulitin ko pa ulit... nagkataon lang. Pero kung pag-iisipan. Imbento lang e. Over analyzed.
As in OA.
Snapped back to reality, dear!
And besides, ayoko sa laging late.
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